Glass Houses

Anyone who tries to tell you they haven’t made mistakes in their life is, quite frankly, full of crap.  Everyone makes mistakes.  The thing about mistakes is that what you do with what you’ve learned from them is what determines how the mistake will shape your life.  If you ignore the lesson and live life as is, you have learned nothing, and therefore have wasted time and energy, as stated by John Powell.

The only real mistake is the one from which we learn nothing.  ~John Powell

I am by no means perfect.  I know I’ve made mistakes, and I’ve tried to learn from them.  I try hard to show my daughters how to deal with mistakes when you make them, how to grow from them, and most importantly, how to own up to them. 

Unfortunately, I am dealing with some things right now that I cannot talk to them about.  I cannot talk to anyone about them, and that is hard, but that’s okay because . . .

Today, I’m Swimming!

The thing I am having the most trouble with is the personal judgments and persecution that are based solely on rumor, deceit, and lies.  I am not able to contradict anything right now, and therefore, the rumors just keep getting worse and more sordid on a daily basis.  I try to be patient, take deep breaths, and ignore them, but sometimes it’s hard.  REALLY hard.  I know that no matter what I do, or even if I did respond (if I could), that the naysayers and Negative Nellies would still be there living in their glass houses collecting their stones.

One of my most favorite people in the world gave me the following advice:

“The past is the past.  You have to live your present life for your daughters and your husband.  Go forward from this point on with your head held high knowing that YOU are being the best person YOU can be.”

Thank you, Dad!

I have repeated this to myself many times over the past two weeks as I have had to venture out and live life again.  I have not been hiding per say, but avoiding.  Avoiding conflict, avoiding confrontation, avoiding rumors, avoiding persecution.  I am not avoiding anymore, I can’t avoid and be part of my daughters’ lives. 

I am living my life for my daughters and Aaron, head held high, taking one step at a time.

When the world says, “Give up,”
Hope whispers, “Try it one more time.”
~Author Unknown

I’m Still Swimming!

(and ignoring the stones that come hurtling my direction)  🙂